Castles and Hellgates

Was walking down the long street at night. Didn't know where I was headed to.
Tripped over something, sprained my ankle. Left foot's injured. Couldn't walk too properly.
Came out of nowhere, a guy with the most dramatic eyes.
He helped me get my butt up. Speechless, I just followed.
His hand gripped around my left wrist, and guided my steps.
Continued walking the road of the unknown.
Not any longer after we started walking, his hand embraced mine and I found our fingers crisscrossed.

Like a castle in the air, it's all just a dream.

A dream where I didn't wish to wake up no more..

A dream I wished was reality.

Top-Secret

Hey buddy. I am that beautiful lie each time we meet by chance. Wanna know why I'm a beautiful lie? 'Cause I act differently in front of you.

Not like being plastic or a hypocrite; it's deeper than that.

I act so casually to you; I've been trying so hard to look and sound casual. Takes a lot of effort, trust me.

But God knows that's not how it should be like. And you don't know it. You can't know. You should not know anything about this no more, I don't see the need anyways.

It's a different type of feeling I have inside, and you don't know it.

You might not know it still, even if you look me in the eyes.

That's because I'm good at pretending. See? You didn't even notice this.

I started feigning. It's all a masquerade between us; 'cause feigning is where I'm pretty good at, I would say.

At times that I should wince, grimace, scowl, shudder, flinch, gasp, blench, ache, throb, sting, or hurt from your actions, I could always manage to hide these emotions and replace all of these hankering sensations with my fake smile.

And the other folks walking by don't have a clue.

There are some things in the world better off not knowing; I guess this is one of them.

Moments Before the Retreat

You know what folks, I really don't know why I'm forcing myself to join this retreat. I never wanna join this school activity no more, honestly. I mean..okay, I know this will be good in helping me stay closer to God and all that, but it's not that. And I mean I can handle my relationship with the Lord even without this. The feeling I have right now is like, another one of those days I've dreaded the most has come. I hate it that I've no other choice but to go attend the retreat today till tomorrow.

I sit alone at the gazebo, waiting for something out of the ordinary to take place. Like..something 'unconventional', if you will. From the corner of my eye, I can see someone walking towards me, seems like he's approaching me.

If there was one thing I was really grateful for today, it would be the presence of my good buddy, Percy. He greeted me and I greeted back. I'm like "thank You Lord" that Percy was the first person I saw during this much unexciting day. My mood for today is completely off, but with Percy's refreshing aura I am kinda elated. Atleast I know this day still has some thrill despite the reluctance I have because of the retreat.

More people are arriving. Little by little, fellow students fill up the waiting area. Another factor that lessened my reluctance are a few good laughs I'm currently sharing with some of my folks as I write this post. I guess this very unenthusiastic day for me is starting the right way. I hope it gets even better later on.