Worried. Some kind of trouble.ö

Yo amigos hope all of you are having a great time right now. 'Cause like I'm not really having much of a great time. I'm worried worried worried!

August 3-5 of 2009, we took our 1st Periodical Examinations.
As a Senior, the fact that this will be my last schoolyear and that I'll be leaving very soon makes me feel determined, a lot determined to perform well academically and boost up my grades because I want to GET BACK TO THE TOP TEN STUDENTS OF THE CLASS. From Grades4-6, until 1st year highschool, I was always one of the top ten of the class. I would be usually the top7th of the class for the first quarter of the schoolyear, and it's either I'd go up or down. But I usually went up or maintained my position, I only experienced going down once. When I was in my 2ndyear of highschool, I was not able to get to the top ten, same thing happened to me when I was in 3rd year. I don't know, but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't get back to the top 10.

I just want to get back to the top10 this time. But something bothers me, it's the result of my exams. We have 10 subjects, 5 of them are in the line of 9, 2 are in the line of 8, one is in 7, and the two are still pending for results. 83, 87, 90, 92, 93, 93, 94, and then 79 for Chemistry! :( I was just so upset. After getting those high and average results a 79 will devastate me! I am just worried, so worried. Like what if that 79 has a big impact on my grades? Though it's only one subject, I think it's possible that it'll be the one to pull down everything that I've raised up in my academic performance :(( I'm so afraid and worried. I'm afraid that it can be a reason that will hinder me from getting to the top10. I don't know, but I can't do anything about it, it's already there. I'm so worried! Lord help me please :0