Tonight, I'm in an unsure state of mind. Yes, unsure. I don't know, I know I'm happy and my life's been doing great the past couple of days and weeks. Nothin's really been wrong and there hasn't been some kind of trouble taking place in my life. Somehow, there's just this unidentifiable factor that slightly affects a portion of my mentality right now. Yep, it's unidentifiable. Like, you can't see it you don't know what exactly this thing is, but you know it's there and it's sort of bugging you. But I'm fine, really. Yet there's still this factor that vaguely distracts me. I'm happy but I feel like something isn't right. I'M NOT SURE, see?! Told ya I'm in an unsure state of mind! It's not like I'm affected in a negative way; not like this "unidentifiable factor" is nearly destroying my life, no it ain't exactly like that.
It's been another typical day, it's gone by so fast and it's this late night segment of my life again. To be honest, this part is basically like the defining moment of my every entire day. Not like everyday during this segment that something out of the ordinary happens, not all the time, atleast. But yes. This particular portion of my everyday is something really special, definitely my favorite part. Sometimes it's very ordinary though, but I ofcourse love it more when it's extraordinary at times too.
This is crazy and the topic of this blog is slowly skipping on different topics, but the thing is. There are times in life where you know you need or sometimes, just simply "want" to express things, like share your thoughts about something. And once you've released those words, once they escaped your lips already, all of a sudden this uncertain feeling comes along. Then you'll feel like what you did was wrong, when truthfully you have really no clue as to whether it is a good or bad idea to do it. Like, ya know what I mean folks? It's a confusing thing, really. But you just suddenly feel like your mind is speaking to you afterwards, saying somethin' like, "I don't think I should've said those things." Like, you know it's not "so right" but definitely not wrong either, what you believe in is that "it's okay to share your thoughts". But now that things have been said and done, your mind kinda does a u-turn, changing its state and now thinking that it was quite awkward to have yourself say whatever all those stuffs were that you said. ARGHH
This is so weird, what a funny feeling. It's not so bad when you think of it but it'll sure drive you crazy. I'll live though, that's for sure.
God bless, folks.
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