"Hey, we're in front of your gate. Come on down already!" He sounded just as excited on the other line. I laughed. I was more excited. He had no idea I was that glad to be seeing him again.
"Coming!" The quick call ended. I put my phone in the pocket of my knee-length cargo pants and hurriedly raced down the staircase. I secretly peeked outside through the window before going out completely, and there he was with his bestfriend, Seth. They had brought their mountain bikes, awesome! This only meant that I would be hitching a ride with Brian on his bicycle again, great! Brian's mountain bike had like a seat extension behind the main seat of it, I'd be at his back...great. I silently giggled to myself. There I went again, rejoicing into my silly puppy love imagination. I was smiling like a fool, just standing by the door and peeking through the window. All of a sudden my smile was gone and it was slowly replaced with a frown. Something came into my mind. Right; it was 'this thing' that was bugging my mind again! Great. I swiftly remembered my friends. Well not them exactly, but the little things they had said to me. They sort of warned me. I recalled...
FLASHBACK. *2 weeks ago*
"What?!"
"No way!"
"Ashley, you've got to be kidding!"
Erin, Chloe, and Leslie, all three of them reacted violently. I just told them I have gotten some crush on Brian. Their words surprised me.
"Haha! What?! It's just a crush!" I laughed uncertainly at them.
"Ashley, you know that can't be right! Especially not when it even turns deeper than a crush." Leslie said seriously.
"Yeah, c'mon Ash! That's just NOT normal!" Erin added, her face still in shock.
"And how could it be, AB-normal?! HAVING CRUSHES IS NORMAL!!! It's like every teenager's little thing nowadays! If you think that me being 13 and him being 17 is a big deal, please! Just quit it." I protested.
"Ashley..." Chloe grabbed me by my shoulders so that I'd be facing her, and continued "You know completely what the problem is." My eyes narrowed, their words confused me.
"Why are you all acting like you're against my personal interests?!" I irritably questioned them, not understanding them.
"Ash, we don't wanna hurt you but you know something isn't right with you liking Brian. It's not just about the age thing you know.." Chloe replied seriously, her hands still on my shoulders.
"Yeah, we don't like hurting your feelings but you just have to understand, Ash... We know you know exactly why you two can't be together." Erin told me caringly. She was slowly hurting me with the words she just said but I tried to ignore it. They were so much trying to emphasize that something was wrong with me liking Brian. I didn't seem to understand, although I quite had a clue about what they were talking about.
"Not like we're discouraging you about it but, can't you see that, Ashley?" Leslie added.
This time I got really mad. Why couldn't they just be supportive friends?
"Stop it, you guys!" I shouted and shook Chloe's hands off of my shoulders. "I like Brian, what's so wrong about that?! You girls have been always telling me about a bunch of people that you like, and did you ever hear me object about them?! NO! I've always been okay with each of the guys you like! So why can't you all be okay with the idea? I like him and I don't understand why all of you are disapproving this!" I expressed angrily, my voice almost sounded like I was in tears.
"Ashley!" Both Erin and Leslie yelled at me. There was silence.
"You know the situation between you and Brian is just NOT normal at all. You can't like him, you shouldn't. He can't and shouldn't like you back as well." Chloe emphasized, I could see she was trying so hard to get her words right in my head immediately. But I just wouldn't listen at the time.
"Ashley, please. It can't be... you and him." Erin tried hard to make me understand.
"Know what, Ash, whatever that thing you've got for him is, it's gotta stop. Before things get out of control." Leslie said, her eyes were full of concern.
At that point they had really hurt me, although I knew they just really cared for me. I pretended I didn't understand them and that I wouldn't listen to them no matter what they said, but inside I was crying, realizing that they did have a point and everything they said was just... too true. Truth hurts. I knew what exactly the problem was, and I hate the fact that among all the other guys I've known, it had to be Brian that I like.
END OF FLASHBACK.
Now at this point, you might all be wondering why everyone believed that it was wrong for me to like him and all. You might not know the problem yet for now. But what you know now is that I'm just in pain for thinking about that problem nonstop... that problem...which all of you would figure out a little later as you continue reading this story...
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